This one’s really short.
If you’re out there hanging with guys known as “admirers”, and those guys treat you as…
“…secret “discreet” hidden fetish fucks by the majority of admirers who hugged on to hetero-mono-normative relationships while getting into the desserts while no one is looking…”
Then you really should question your definition of “admirer.” Here I’ll help:
ad·mir·er (ədˈmī(ə)rər/) noun: someone who has a particular regard for someone or something
If a a person treats you like shit, they’re not an “admirer”. They’re something else. If you want to find someone who will have a particular regard for you, who will admire you, you might want to change a few stories, stories creating situations where you’re willing to put up with being treated like shit.
As though you have no other alternative (news flash: You do have other alternatives!)