A long exchange of heartbreak and struggle that didn't have to be, but was. TRIGGER WARNING: some language invalidates and erases the trans experience. Be advised.
At one time I tried to suppress this attraction in every possible way, but it always ended in failure (and every day, I am more glad that I did not succeed in suppressing).
I for most of my life have lived and thought of myself as a straight man. Now though I feel I am also attracted to trans women pre and post SRS.
Your relationship sucks? You don't have a relationship, but want one? Consider yourself lucky.
A broken heart happens when I make my relationship with me subordinate to other relationships. That sorted, my heart doesn't break. And yet I love.