Desires are good not "addictions". Attraction is good. It is not an "addiction". Love is good too and it is not restricted to just one person.
You get more bees with honey, i.e., you'll find your lover by first becoming sweet.
The shame you feel being trans-attracted rests deep in the vileness of the patriarchy. Like the quote says: patriarchy’s first violent act is within men.
What I am saying is, you are more free than you think. Even if you are in a situation that seems so bleak, you couldn’t possibly have wanted to experience it, you can find yourself in a far better place.
What if there were very good reasons why you came into the world as transgender or transamorous?