You get more bees with honey, i.e., you'll find your lover by first becoming sweet.
The shame you feel being trans-attracted rests deep in the vileness of the patriarchy. Like the quote says: patriarchy’s first violent act is within men.
What I am saying is, you are more free than you think. Even if you are in a situation that seems so bleak, you couldn’t possibly have wanted to experience it, you can find yourself in a far better place.
What if there were very good reasons why you came into the world as transgender or transamorous?
...after that he recommended I see a friend of his, another counselor. This person tried to convince me to own the “fact” that I was homosexual...